I've written volumes on my website about the struggles I've faced as a cancer survivor and all that's challenged me. I can neither leave this situation, nor have I ever been willing to accept some things about it. All I've ever been able to do is CHANGE, to grow, and to evolve.
Just short of two years after my cancer diagnosis, I hit rock bottom. A friend of mine had died of his cancer, other friends were experiencing recurrences of theirs, I had strange things going on with my body, and thought for sure that my cancer had returned. I feared that I had just lived my last good days, and that I was going to die.
While in such distressed states, I've needed to be able to look someone in their eyes and just know that they're with me, that their hearts and their intentions towards me are pure, and I've needed to feel their strength, their confidence, and their positive energy as my own, because lord knows I've needed every bit of it.